Lord Thank You for Your Love-
a love that has not forsaken me, degraded me, left me! One that has been proven through the tests of time of “How real it is”. One that never asks much of me, but one that I give so freely to. One that I didn’t have to question, because You, my Lord, have continuously let me know- I AM LOVED .
I think over these years, as I walk this journey-“my journey”- how I always felt like, “I had to fight”. Fight for love, fight for respect, fight to be seen, and even fight to be heard. I often asked myself, “why”?
Why do people think that they are “SUPERIOR “over others?
What makes a person, think or feel they are better than the next when God created us all? Is it money? Status? Looks? What is it? that makes so many people proceed in this life, that we all been granted equally, think they are better? I never got this, I never got, why if you didn’t act, talk, had what they had, or look a certain way, people treated you differently. I never got, why I had to work harder for friends and family’s love, than others. Because I didn’t act like “they wanted” or even look or speak like “they wanted”.
Weren’t they supposed to love me anyways? I always wondered this, how I never received or felt this love so many professed to have for me. Why?
Because most came with stipulations, limitations, and requirements, they sat and judged and told me who or what I was and wasn’t: even though they didn’t know me, and “never even ask me How I was!! And still opened their mouth to say “I love you”…
OH REALLY, DO YOU?
Did you love me, when I didn’t do as you said? Or did you love me, when I walked, talked, or moved differently from you? Did you love me, when you refused to stand up for me, even though, I stood for you? Did you still Love me, even when You didn’t understand me? Did you Love me, when you talked about me? Well, Did You?
Of course not, because what you saw as Love, I now see as a bunch of lies and for some, a form of abuse!! Because if you put stipulations, limitations, and requirements on something that is supposed to be unconditional, then IT IS NOT LOVE!! and IF you used IT as a weapon, then it is ABUSE!! I lived with these lies, accepted them as my own, not knowing this was not HOW GOD LOVES: nor was it the life HE CREATED FOR ME.
It was “A Life Built On A Lie” (BY C. L SYLVESTER)
I wrote that because it is “MY TRUTH“, and on this path, to “Total Truth-God’s Truth“!! I also found that a lot of what I’ve learned and seen has been a lie!!! Some are intentional and Some were passed down from generation to generation. What I now call “traditional adaptive learning” and most of these “traditional lies” many of us still live by today. Yet sitting confused and believing all that we hear, even about yourself.
Why, because many don’t seek truth, they just take others’ word for it. Meaning-they take “Others Truth” to be true!!
Yeah, I’ll let that part sink in, because much of this journey, already taught me, meaning God has taught me, that many are and will remain lost!!
One reason, they’ll be lost, is because they uphold so many and put them on pedestals, only fit for CHRIST.
Two, they have been too afraid to think for themselves, afraid of “what others” will say. If they say, “Oh this is not right“, “you can’t do that“, “you’re not this or you’re not that“, YOU BELIEVE IT!!!
NOT ONCE, DID YOU THINK IT WAS OK TO GO SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH FOR YOURSELF-
–YOU SIMPLY TOOK THEIR WORD FOR IT AND BELIEVED THEM.
YOU BELIEVED EVERY SINGLE THING THEY SAID NOT JUST THAT YOU WERE THIS OR THAT- you even believed them when they made you feel you were EVEN UNWORTHY of God’s love.
You thought you couldn’t be seen by God, used by God, touched by God: Why?
Because “they said so“? WHO ARE THEY?
CHILD “THEY” ARE THE SAME AS YOU<<
“they” human, just like you,
MUST SEEK GOD’S APPROVAL JUST LIKE YOU!!
“A LIFE BUILT ON A LIE” excerpts…
I shared this because I pray that it helps someone, I pray that it leads you on a path to “your total truth-God’s truth“!!
I pray that you STOP BELIEVING, all what -others tell you about you, not saying everything you hear is a lie. I am saying, why RISK IT?
WHY PUT YOUR LIFE IN ANYONE’S HANDS, EXCEPT GODs
WHY TAKE “THEIR VERSION” as Your Truth
WHEN YOU CAN KNOW “HIS VERSION” as It is True!!
and if they were right, THEN, both will LOOK THE SAME!!
DON’T LIVE ON MAN’S WORD-LIVE ON GOD’S WORDS!!
KNOW YOUR WORTH!!
KNOW THAT IT IS NOT MAN’S APPROVAL WE SEEK- IT’S GOD’S WE MUST HAVE!
PRAY, ASK, SEEK, AND YOU WILL FIND!!
THAT’S WHY SATAN MAD-
MY GOD-GIVEN TREASURE
I FOUND A BEAUTIFUL TREASURE IN ME-
ONE BLESSED BY GOD-GIVEN BY GOD-LOVED BY GOD
ONE THAT MAN CAN’T GIVE OR TAKE!!
A TREASURE THAT WILL NEVER NEED THE APPROVAL OF MAN–
A TREASURE THAT WILL…
NEVER FEEL LESS THAN, NEVER FEEL UNLOVED, AND NEVER FEEL WORTHLESS
A TREASURE MORE PRECIOUS THAN GOLD AND MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN DIAMONDS
BECAUSE MAN DIDN’T GIVE IT TO ME-GOD DID!!
Journaling To My Truth