Lord, I am so grateful for life, as I sit here and think of the week. I truly want to simply say THANK YOU, LORD, ❤ Thank you for the sweet tones of Your voice, reminding me of “How much You Love Me“. As I sit, listening to music and meditate on You, Oh’ how grateful I am; that You haven’t forgotten me. How grateful I am, that this walk with You is so worth it, so easy, so impelling.
How easy it is, to wake, looking forward to my time with You. How natural it has become to turn on some soothing gospel at night, looking at Your encouraging words and feeling Your sweet Spirit. How it embraces me, when I feel weak, worried, or just not myself. How Your Sweet Spirit, keeps me grounded, helps me stay uplifted; and simply reminds me of Your UNENDING LOVE ❤
I sit tonight, thinking of this week, thinking of the few struggles I had. I think of how the “Old Me” “tried”, BUT FAILED, to creep in. But YOUR sweet SPIRIT reminded me-NO, DAUGHTER, that’s NOT you anymore. YOU DON’T HAVE TO FIGHT-I WILL!!
You took that load and held it as Your own, because You, My Lord said, “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest”. And Rest You gave, So grateful unto you, for doing that for “crazy ol’ me”.
So Thankful for Your reminders of “Why” I continue to push on, why I continue to ‘SMILE’ even when it doesn’t look right or feel right. As I fail weak to flesh and felt some hurt and pain, it was Your embrace I suddenly felt, letting me know, how “all will be ok”. It was Your comforting words, that reminded me “you’ve come too far” to turn back now. “You’ve come too far, to allow others to steal your joy!!
It was exactly this reason, I thought about, for the rest of the week: LORD, “I DID COME TO FAR” TO LET ANYONE OR ANYTHING, take me back. I refused then and I refuse now, to go back to that place, that once blinded me with pain, that took control, tried to make me believe “I was worthless”. Using that same, “worthless” feeling to persuade me to take my life.
BUT OOOOH WEEE, MY HEAVENLY FATHER, IT WAS YOU THAT TOOK CONTROL.
Many don’t understand this SHOUT I HAVE, the PRAISE I’ll KEEEP!
Many don’t understand the soul, Ol’ satan tried to KILL!!
Many don’t know, how just months ago, I PLANNED to end it ALL!!
NOPE LORD, MANY DON’T KNOW THAT LOVE AND GRACE THAT SAVED ME ❤ ❤ ❤ NOR THAT SWEET SPIRIT THAT CONTINUES TO EMBRACE ME ❤
SO NAH, I’M GOOD BECAUSE THIS OL’ JOY, I HAVE …I EARNED ❤
Yes, indeed My Heavenly Father, “How GRATEFUL I am” ❤ THAT
YOU WANTED TO LOVE ME AND SAVE ME ❤ AND
SAW A VERSION OF ME, I NEVER EVEN KNEW EXISTED ❤
THANK YOU FATHER,
Journaling To My Truth